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10 October 2011 @ 06:49 pm
☆ 87 I cant.... /cryy  
One reason why I stopped studying nursing was because I cannot handle my emotions well when it comes to heart breaking circumstances. You get the picture.. In my 3 years of studying nursing, I experienced for the first time to see someone dying in front of me: chocking and breathing their last breath.. their relatives breaking down and crying out their name hodling them as if they do not want to let go. and unfortunately  I didn't handle my emotions very well at all. I had to walk out of the scene.  You see, nurses nor doctors should not shed a tear for them. Not in a bad way or anything. We ..err they can't show any sympathy instead they should show more empathy. That I couldn't show. I nearly broke down with the parents that time. 

Now, I never expected this to happen again so soon. I am really praying right now my grandmother overcomes this. I mean she lived for 89 years already. Just last monday I met her and despite her weak body and voice she was still able to joke around with me.... then saturday afternoon came my uncle told me that my grandmother was rushed to the hospital on the same day early in the morning while I was in school. I don't know how to react. 

Then today, I was able to visit her for the first time again and.... I wasnt able to hold back my tears that I had to step out of the room. She's on coma and in 50/50 already. The doctors already told my mom and aunts/uncle to prepare for the worst. My mom was crying, my aunts and uncles were crying. Everyone was crying.... except for my younger brother who seemed calm and collected and able to keep himself togeteher .Although they wanted so much to stay with her in the hospital they can't since all of them said they would end up crying and some of them might end up getting a heart pains etc. 

I wanted ti stay in the room but I just can't I end up crying again. hngghhh 

LOLAAAA HANG IN THERE WE WILL ALL GO TO TAGAYTAY AND DRINK PLENTY OF COKES JUST LIKE YOU WANTED TO. lskdjfsd 
 
 
 
tomo_yotomo_yo on October 10th, 2011 10:56 am (UTC)
MIYA THIS IS SACHUU IN SOMEONE ELSE'S ACCOUNT
:c hang in there!! i had a similar situation last year, if anybody remembers, and my lola was in a coma for about a month. ;_; she's healthy right now but she's lost weight & can't walk anymore but but
miya i hope everything will be alright. D:
michishirube008michishirube008 on October 10th, 2011 11:05 am (UTC)
JENG~ //hugs
「amaimuffin29」: テゴマス ♡ foreveramaimuffin29 on October 10th, 2011 11:11 am (UTC)
*hugs*
kenken18: alone yutokenken18 on October 10th, 2011 12:06 pm (UTC)
I pray for your grandmother!
Please be strong miya!!
that girl with a star on her nail.: 六条壬晴 ☆ moe fagganbaretsgo on October 10th, 2011 12:17 pm (UTC)
MIYAAAAAAAAA ;__; /HUGS
omuricerabujoieavrille on October 10th, 2011 01:19 pm (UTC)
I love you, Miya. *tight hug*
ひろみ: [daiki] cries ;___;lovegahora on October 10th, 2011 03:14 pm (UTC)
I SHOULD CHECK LJ MORE OFTEN
Miya (cozy)!!!! :(
リヤン ♥: yuto ;; fight on!mrsbutaaa on October 10th, 2011 03:15 pm (UTC)
.. IDK how to comfort you babe, but all I can say is just pray to God and leave everything on his hands, he has better plans! :) /hugstightly >:D
kat 【ねこ】: あの花。メランこりーcutoffline on October 10th, 2011 03:17 pm (UTC)
*HUGS*

your brother is like me